This is somewhat a translation in English of the text in my previous post Okänt möte – Lite personligt!
Here I am sitting on the couch with a pensive mind, scratching me like a dog on the bites from the midges I got all over my body yesterday, that wasn’t covered in clothes. I have been drawing and painting since I was a little girl, always been fascinated by pictures of all sorts. When I was about six years old I got a camera which I enjoyd very much and I still got those pictures saved in an old album.
For some reason ( I can’t recall) my interest in photograhpy didn’t last for long at that time, maybe the camera was broken, It became to expensive, I don’t know. The only thing I remember is that I went back to the drawing instead which I still do occasionally.
Anyway, for a couple of years back there where a lot happening in my life that made me serch of a new hobby. A hobby that I easily would be able to do anywhere without to much efford or preparations, that would be possible to do at the same time I was taking care of my son what ever we were up to and wherever we went. It really was a coincidence (or maybe it was my subconscious who was guiding me) it became photography I choosed.
It turned out to be a perfect hobby for the state I was in for the time being. I’m not sure of the right English term, but I had burned myself out totally and had hit the wall. The camera quickly became my best friend, it was easy to put out the camera at any time, It didn’t demanded any planing, I could take it with me everywhere and it didn’t cost a fortune perform this kind of hobby. It became my rekreation, and it made me get out of the house when I got the chance.
I never cared to read any handbooks, technical information or texts about photography. Neither have I read much about famous photographers or photography itself. Not because I don’t care or in lack of interest but because I use photography first of as a way to escape reality and to try to find new energy and happiness, not to be more stressed out by putting even more pressure on myself which I know I would have done. And I really fell for photography big time!
Today I guess I have learned some things about photgraphy, and I have been reading a little bit about it at different skilled bloggers, but if the texts are to long (which even goes for blogposts my followers wright – Sorry!) I still can’t read them after I burned out, that skill hasn’t returned and I don’t know if it ever will. For me that is very sad, I belong to the people who used to read at least four books a week, both about facts and novels.
But, back to the headline of this post..
Yesterdays unexpected meeting with the Linnea Borealis ( the flower in the picture) made me lyrical and very happy. To run into this amazing little pink and sheer flower in the forest was a wonderful experience. I have never seen it in real life before and didn’t expect it to happen either since I didn’t thought it grew in my part of Sweden. I have visit this forest before for several years, strolled by the exact same spot taking photographs at the beutiful ferns and the moss there but never seen even one Linnea before. It made me really happy!
I was so thrilled by this occation that I didn’t dare to get my photos uploaded in case they all would be ruined, the midges had been very aggressive so it was a real challenge trying to hold the camera steady while photographing. But this morning I took the courage to open the map… and yes, some of the pictures was really diffuse because of the midges but fortunately there where a couple of good ones too. And since the forest is just around the corner from my home I could dress upp in a diving suit, or even better, use some mosquito repellant and go back there again any day!
I have a lot of thoughts about what I want with my photography and how to continuing to develope in the way I want and can, depending of what my energy will allow. I have no answers to this yet, but I do know that I want to be able to express more of what I feel inside. I realized that what ever I do or wherever I go I scan the enviroment for interesting objects to take a picture of and I do know that if I could I would run arond with my camera 24/7!
I hope my English was good enough for you to understand this post – I am sure there are quite a few misspelled words and the wrong tenses so I thank you for your patience.
Thank you very much for reading this and welcome back!